Tuesday, July 8, 2014

B.A. in Psychology and Graduate Student!

I DID IT!

Since my last update I was foolishly lingering over past crushes and thinking about just isolating myself from society all together. In a crazy turn of events, I actually got my act together and really focused on myself. I just graduated from CSUF with my Bachelor of Arts in Psychology. Pretty nice achievement right? I am officially done with schooling!!!! WRONG! I am actually continuing on with graduate school at CSULA. I got accepted into a Master's of Science program in Counseling (concentration in School Psychology). 

This is how I feel about that: @*#&&$(EHDUOFBJD:DDDDD

I just am floored that not only CSULA wanted me but CSUN (Northridge) did too! For anyone that knows me and has known me, clearly understands my utter shock. I really just applied just hoping to at least get an interview. That alone was such an achievement for me because no one that I know has ever been accepted to a School Psychology Program (they are super competitive). With that, I already felt like a winner. When I got my acceptance letter from Northridge I literally fell to the floor and started crying. It was like someone just told me "Alex, your lifelong dream of becoming a school psychologist....is turning into reality." It was insane how someone as simple and casual as me could get into such a school. 3 weeks later I get an e-mail from CSULA in how they accepted me into their 2014 cohort. I was in class and was telling my colleague that I probably did not get accepted. But then I opened up the e-mail and literally lost my breath when I read that. I called my mom in tears again and she was so so proud. 

So I chose CSULA because:
A.) They offer an MS in counseling, option School Psychology with PPS Credential
B.) They also give you a CWA credential (Child Welfare and Attendance)
C.) BCBA certification to be certified under the board for ABA.
D.) They have a good relationship with the PhD program for UCLA/CSULA in special education

DUH! I was not going to let that opportunity go! Sorry Northridge, but I really wanted to go to CSULA.


I also moved out of Whittier (thank the psychology gods! HA!). I now reside in the amazing city of Long Beach, California. I live with two awesome roommates and honestly could not be happier.

I also signed with CARD to be a behavioral therapist/interventionist. I get to work with autistic kids and make some good money (FINALLY!)

Anyways, I'm hungry and need some food.

LATER!

Monday, June 10, 2013

Crushed, Used and Upset

So I don't even know where to begin: I have never ever had this type of situation happen to me. A few hours ago was like the worst time of my life.

Here goes: 
So I've been crushing on this person for about 2 years now. Perhaps a little more. They know it and everything but, it just seems like they don't give two cents about it.

I met them through an ex-friend and have been intrigued for quite some time. I was told that I was too shy so I backed off for about a year and really tried to build myself up. I gained more self-confidence and attempted to talk to this person again. Things went well. We saw each other more frequently then the year before. 

However, they told me this: I am not looking for a relationship at this time. Something told me this was bullshit. Like why the need to ask what I was looking for? Hmmm

So anywho, my crush goes on Coachella and posts some pretty romantic photos of the person they met up with at Coachella. Was I jealous? YES! 

I didn't get it. They had just told me that they wanted to be single and not be in a relationship. Did I hear wrong?

Nope. It was me whom they didn't want to be in a relationship with.

Fast forward to a few hours ago: I get a call from my crush, asking me to find out what kind of flowers does this person like. I felt like I was put into the deepest level of friendzone. They realize that I wasn't that friend that they thought I was and hung up.

A few things I learned: 
1. My crush is taking an 8.5 hour train ride to see their person.
2. They are getting flowers from my crush.

>>>> WTF!!!! I never got flowers when we were "seeing" each other. Nor did you ever make that 30-40 minute drive to see me ever. Yet, I paid for you, drove you and even bought you drinks before you were 21. I even worked on myself to increase my chances with you. I did everything I was meant to and still never got anything back from you.


I feel stupid, used, dumb, retarded, hurt, confused, baffled, unappreciated, mislead, and cheated. 

The worst part is I still allow you to be my "friend," when you just did this to me.


My advice to people reading this:
If someone isn't giving you their 100% , ditch them. You're better than that and deserve so much more. 

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

The Youth These Days!

It's incredibly unbelievable at how drastically kids are changing. What happened to those days of innocence, fun and pure laughter?

It seems like kids have lost just that: being a kid.

I laugh when I see kids be in "relationships." It's like 2 weeks later "I broke up with so and so."

The biggest thing that irritates me so much is bullying. I can't even begin explaining how angry it makes me.

I stand up against bullies at my job and will continue to do so. No kid deserves to be treated like shit.

Why pick on someone else to make their life a living hell?

Is it because they are socially awkward? Because you think they are lame? Because it's the cool thing to do?

Well seriously just stop. That just shows how pathetic you are.


The ultimate bullying word that honestly makes me cringe inside is the f word.

Faggot.Queer. Dyke. Lesbo. Gay Guy. Carpet Muncher. Lesbian. Etc.

Honestly! Why hate on people that are different? It's like hating on someone because they are black, white, Latin, Asian or middle eastern. It's ignorant, stupid and just flat out cruel.

To all those kids that bully or have bullied others: do you realize how many kids in this country and worldwide take their lives each year because of the stupid sh*t you say? In other words, you are killing an innocent person with your vicious words.

Think about what it must be like to lose your brother, best friend, son, father, daughter, sister, nieces, nephews, etc... To lose them to some creep that will not mean anything once they leave high school.

Yup I said it. 90% of your friends will not keep in contact with you after high school. So really just cut this crap out.

Also: parents of kids that were born after 2001. Stop spoiling your kids. You're doing them a huge undoing. You are conditioning them to just get everything handed to them. That is NOT how the world works and YOU damn know that.

I'm sorry but I find it sad that parents set up their kids to fail. Like, aren't parents suppose to teach a child what it's really like so their child can survive and succeed in the real world? I don't get this. Not one bit.

Seriously some of the stuff I read online posted by kids between the ages of 10-16 is just flat out depressing, enraging and embarrassing.

Please mature and do us all a favor: end bullying for good.

Friday, November 23, 2012

Amazing Opportunities Await

My life just keeps getting better and better! I just got another amazing opportunity.

Unfortunately my time with after school programming comes to an end. Thank you Think Together for giving me an amazing experience. I have made more friends in 1 year at think together than I ever did at my 4 years in aspire.


I just landed a job as an ABA Therapist. I will be working with kids that have autism and other related disorders. I have been looking for something like this since I've graduated high school. I cannot thank god enough for this.

I am sure that this opportunity will open up so many more doors for me.

Friday, October 12, 2012

Update

I haven't been on this in like 4 months or so. So, I decided update this blog with a post on a few things.

I'm finally at a middle school! I love working with middle school kids. It is honestly awesome and I am so excited to be apart of this amazing opportunity. I have a great team, an amazing class and everything that I need to be the best.

School gets more and more rigorous as time passes but, it's going well. I am extremely excited for my future.

For the fans of LeGore'sNTM, I am so sorry but Next Top Model will not be continuing on at LeGore or any of the aspire schools. Sorry :(

It was an amazing experience and I'm glad I did it but, I think it's just going to be a thing of the past.

I'm super excited for tonight! I am going to halloween horror nights. :)

I'll blog some more later, take it easy,

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Clarifying A Few Things

I guess my last post wasn't clear enough so, I will make this one even clearer.

1.) I was NOT fired or laid off from Aspire... I don't understand why I keep getting asked this question. I left Aspire for Think Together. I'm glad I did too.

2.) Kind of goes with 1... I am not in jail nor have I ever been to jail. Again, this is really weird and really bizarre.

3.) Whatever else people say as to why I left is completely false. No I never abused, touched, harmed or put anyone in immediate danger. I would never harm anyone else nor would I do anything to make someone feel uncomfortable.



Some things I want to put out there that went unmentioned.

A.) The reason why rec. was suspended last year for 2 months was because of mr. Mike. The principal does not like him and even told us all that it was due to his actions with students that caused us all to lose our recreation. But of course, I get blamed for it because no one would believe the truth but easily believe a lie.

B.) No one really cared for Aspire or the kids. The only people that actually cared for the students and wanted to be there are the following: Michelle, Jocelyn, Marcel, Me, Rebecca, Stephanie, and Steve. Everyone would complain about how awful the kids are and would even say things behind the students backs. Why does it make me mad? Because people would say stuff about poor kids and they would be nice to them in their face. I just thought that to be completely fake and wrong.

C.) People are very racist and rude at LeGore. I don't mean the students but the youth leaders. I seriously wanted to leave so badly from that place but they wouldn't let me go to any other school. Nestor, Marcel, Berenise and a few others left because people were just so mean. I remained neutral but once they all left, and it was just me and Jocelyn, they were really rude to us all of a sudden. Jocelyn left in tears and quit right before Christmas. I was hoping and praying that Think Together would hire me and when they did, I quit Aspire ASAP and started with Think Together.

D.) I would have gone to the promotion but I had car trouble that Wednesday morning. I am so sorry to those that thought I didn't care or anything because I do. All of you have a bright future and I wish nothing for the best for all my past students (even if they hate me or dislike me I don't care).

So right now I'm finishing up my degree in psychology at CSUF, working at Think Together and I am starting to volunteer at my uncle's church to feed the homeless and to provide them with shelter. I don't claim to be perfect and I don't claim to be a hero. I'm just an ordinary person doing what I can to make the most out of my life. Judge me, Like me, Hate me...I don't care! I'm me and I'm proud of who I am and so is my family and that's all I need.

Thanks and May you all live a long, happy and prosperous life.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Tough Times

I guess 2012 has really been testing me on several levels. Last week has been by far the hardest week I've had to endure. My aunt passed away on May 20th 2012 at the age of 43. She was diagnosed with major depression and was on 6 different medications. That very Sunday, she lost the battle and slipped away.

Words cannot express how difficult it was for my whole family. We love and care for very deeply for her. And now she's gone. It just makes life that much more valuable. One day we are here perfectly fine and the next, we are not.

In this last year, I grew super close with my aunt. She's one of the few people who's actually told me to follow my dreams. She would always be so proud of me and would say how much of an honor it was to have me as a nephew.

I wish there's was something I could have done to prevent this from happening. I gave it everything I had. So in a way I feel content with myself.

I miss you so much Aunt Carmen.
If there is a heaven, I have no doubt you are there.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

The Diary of Anne Frank

Last Saturday night, I went to go see The Diary of Anne Frank. It was a university production at my school CSUF. I went with my friend Jessica on a last minute notice. We got the best seats possible considering we made our purchases a quarter before the play started. I was thrilled to see this since I have read the book and watched the film on Netflix. 

Plot
So the play takes place entirely in the attic where the Frank and Van Dan's go into hiding. I really enjoyed their interpretation of the secret annex. The story begins when the family arrives at the annex and begin their 2 years of stay. The young lady that played Anne, did an amazing job as her. Her portrayal of the character was a bit much on the joyful side but, nonetheless it was credible. Actually, all of the characters lived up to their parts pretty immaculately. What I liked about this play was that it had more comedic reliefs and had interesting scenes that had a more flavor. For Example, Mrs. Van Dan's character was much more exuberant than her counterparts on the Netflix film and the novel (or recollection of journals I should say). I wasn't too keen on the Van Dan son's character. He played the part well but he seemed much more crucial in the film than in the play itself. Mrs. Frank, Margo and Mr. Dusel really had different roles in this adaption. They were more exaggerated. What was definitely more present was the romance that Anne develops with Peter. I actually quite liked it. Jessica and I noticed it was more juvenile but at the same time, it felt completely honest. The parts that really stood out to me was when they would listen to the radio. In that time, radio is what cable television/ps3/Hi-Def is to us. So, it was very intriguing and quite mesmerizing to witness such a scene. Also, whenever Miep Gies would come in, the mood would just change. Whether they were somber and melancholy or angry and frustrated, Miep seemed to bring their spirits up each time she came. Another thing that Jessica pointed out to me was how she thought it was neat that they actually ate during the play. I thought that was very well executed as well. The cake, the strawberries and the soups. In the final scene where they are betrayed was very interesting. In the netflix film, Anne is writing in her diary (in her room). In the play, her, Margot and Peter are laughing in the attic eating the strawberries. When the Nazis came in for the family, you can just feel the tension. Oh my god, I was scared in my seat. They really got the intimidating presence down. I think I even felt the people around me quiver. It was truly sad to see them be taken away by them. Especially in the last scene, when Otto Frank goes back to the Annex after surviving Auschwitz. He begins to say how Margot, Mrs. Frank, the others and Anne died in the camps. The audience grew silent and listened to his final words. I heard a girl sitting in front of me begin to cry with a whimper. I turned and Jessica was balling her eyes out. As the scene closes, we all stood and gave them a standing ovation. I began to feel sad as well.

Opportunity Missed for Some
Oh how I wished I could have brought the kids from LeGore Elementary to see this. It was beyond what I expected it to be. I truly believe this would have had a great effect on them. But oh well. 

What I took away from the play
What I take away is a bit more of knowledge. I think The Diary of Anne Frank really gives us people living in the current 21st century, a panoramic picture of what World War II was. Despite it being in the 1940's, I think it's pretty fresh in our history. I can't imagine what the actual feeling was like for the Frank and the others hiding. It's pretty interesting knowing that Miep, one of the helpers, just died in 2010. 2010! How insane is that? she gave historians and people living in the present such a clear picture of what it was back then. 

Message To All
I believe this happened to open up our eyes on how people are discriminated against on a day-to-day basis. It's 2012 and people still get discriminated against. No doubt society has made great strides but, there is still more to go. Jewish people, gypsies, homosexuals, disabled people, people of poverty, etc... all wither such hate and such harsh conditions. It needs to stop. It really breaks my soul to hear stories of people who are treated as second or third class citizens who have no bad intention. All they want is what we all want: acceptance. It's one word but it demands a lot from us. It demands people to be open-minded. It requires courage, strength, wisdom, selflessness and love. How many more religious wars must the world see? How many people have to starve to get this message across? How many more gay/lesbian teens have to kill themselves to raise awareness? How much more pain must humanity go through until the iron curtain is finally unveiled? I think over 3000 years is enough time to grow. It's enough time to be civilized, educated and responsible. The world belongs to all of us. Let's protect it and make it a safe place for all. We are all born here for a purpose. We are here because it was destined to be so. We will die to give a new generation a chance to live out their lives and carry our morals behind. History is the greatest subject of all time. Why? Because it where were preserve our fondest memories and where we can be guided to a brighter tomorrow.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Think Together

So I just got on board with Think Together this week. Omg it is amazing! The program is so well organized and there's plenty of things to do here. I love it! I have a 5th/6th combo class and they are really great! I'm not going to lie, there are some kids back at aspire that I miss. But that's it.

I find it scary how I know a student or two every school that I go to. I saw an old LeGore student at this new school. His name is Kevin L. It was pretty crazy because it was like when I arrived at LeGore and saw Eduardo from Shirpser.

The biggest surprise to me was that I got picked to be here because the kids love me...WHAT?!!? I'm shocked. I didn't think kids liked me at all. So it was nice hearing that.

I'm so excited to begin my journey with Think Together and move on forward. I bet it will be an exciting one. :)

Monday, February 20, 2012

People

You can't live with them and you can't live without them. They are are greatest of friends and our worst of enemies. Some come into your life for a purpose while others come without one. The young and the old. The wise and the foolish. Those that are there to help and those that are there to hurt.

I find this all to be so true. My experiences have highlighted this theme time and time again.

I remember being in 3rd grade and having the "coolest" teacher ever. We were allowed to bring Electronics, junk food and just anything we pleased. Looking back as an adult, I would ask our teacher why she did this to us? I feel so back that year and thank god I had a teacher that kicked me back into gear in 4th grade.

Another experience: a secondhand experience. I witnessed group think for the first time ever. My friend got accused by 98% of the class of theft. He didn't have recess for the remainder of the year. I was the only one by his side. Nobody cared what I said or what he said. It was 38 versus 2. One day my teacher accidentally overheard a conversation that left her speechless. It was mid-May. She heard students plotting against my friend and even saying how easy it was to make everyone join in on the lie. All 38 students were suspended for the week and could not attend the end-of-the year activities. I remember her getting on her knees in tears. Asking for my friend and I to forgive her. We did and we all had a group hug.

In 7th grade I helped improve my middle school. Another council member and myself decided to make a change that could last 2 maybe 3 years. You want to know something? That change is still there. Somewhere in that cafeteria is my name alongside with Samantha's. I feel honored.

My junior year I saved a life. A fellow student, who will remain anonymous, told me who she really was. She was living her life as a normal, 17 year old girl. She had friends, good grades, popularity, and even a boyfriend. But she confided me her biggest secret. She felt fake. She didn't feel anything for her boyfriend. In fact, she claims that she is using him to get a status. What's her secret? She's a lesbian. She sees girls the same way I do. And there's nothing wrong with that. I told her that we live in a world where homophobia is declining and it's being respected nowadays. Who knows, I could have a son or daughter in the future who could be homosexual.

We live in a world where society has come a long way. But there's still more to go. Most people believe racism is wrong yet, it still exists. Most people say they are unique and unlike other people. Yet, they are exactly the same.

So what is the point of me stating the obvious? That answer is up for your interpretation. Think of it as a rhetorical question. What would you do? Why? Who are you? Would you accept change? Are the friends you have right now be the same in 5 years? 10 years? 20 years? Think about it.