My interpretation of "last resort," is being the last possible option for people. In other words, once everyone that they originally wanted to hang out with has said "no," they ask you. It's a pretty messed up situation and can honestly hurt people more than make them feel included.
If I draw from my own personal experiences, I can say that I've been there oh so many times. Guess what? I'm STILL there. What??? You mean it does not get better??? Sadly, no it does not. So I'll start with the furthest recent and continue on to the present day.
For as long as I could remember, I was always that kid in school that people only talked to in class and never really outside of class. If people needed something from me academically, they would ask. Me being the dummy that I am, took it as an opportunity to socialize with people. Unfortunately, I was just being utilized for answers. These same people would go out of their way to exclude me from anything that had to do with social interaction. Yea, pretty sad right? Those were the middle school / high school days.
College was a new form of last resort. People were genuinely nice to you inside and outside of class. I was so ecstatic! I finally have friends, I thought. I thought wrong of course! See when you get to college, people have to be nicer and actually play a better game. This is what I like to call the semester acquaintance (or quarter, depending on what school you go to).
So this semester acquaintance is basically a person that makes an effort to make you feel like you are a cool person and they want to be friends with you. They exchange numbers with you, invite you to places and hang out with you all the time at school and sometimes even on the weekends. I know what y'all are thinking, this sounds fucking awesome right? Here's where the not so awesome part begins:
Once the semester is over, so is your friendship with this person. Whaaaa? You mean it Alex? DUH! So what happens? Did you do something to piss them off at the end of the semester? Were they faking this friendship with you? *GASP* Did I just get used again? Actually not really. You did nothing wrong. Here's what happened: The person did genuinely like you. Yes this is true. Yea they did spend a lot of time with you and even heard you out when you needed to vent. But the reality is....they no longer need you and so it is quick to just not hang out. The given reason: You no longer have class together and they have a new semester acquaintance. Sounds really depressing there Alex. It is but, it doesn't have to be.
Now moving on forward to the present day...I'm still this last resort person. So I will not use any real names or actual locations because I am still a part of this situation but I will spill my story. So for about 1.5 to 2 years now, I've been walking down a steady rode with 7. 7 is fantastic and awesome in their own 7 way. However, there is one big factor between 7 and I (4). And that would be 5. 5 is a very interesting number. Because 5 is 7's longest mathematical problem. Which is understandable right? Yea it is. However, it is getting to the point where 4 (Me) is getting tired of 5 and 7 always being like terms 24/7. 4 (Me) is really 4x. I have a coefficient that just x's me out of every situation with 5 and 7. Me and 5 don't really make such a nice pairing. We've tried but you can't add 4x and 5 to get 9x. No no no. However, 7 can sometimes be 7x. When that happens we become 11x. But about 95% of the time, we are just 4x.....SPACE... and 7. It is getting to the point where I don't see 4x being a part of the equation that much longer. If anything I see 4x becoming a 3x and that would be unfortunate.
The weirdest part about 7: 7 enjoys being alone. 4x gets that and is all about that lonely numerical value life. However, 7 lies to 4x and is really spending time with 5... A LOT. That makes 4x feel very confused and almost questions everything. 4x wants to be a lot closer to 7 and tried with 5 but, 5 is just very unwilling to even communicate with 4x unless 7 is around. 4x doesn't want those fake acquaintances/friendships anymore. But, 4x knows that 5 is really 7's favorite number. So 4x gives 7 and 5 all the time in the world to coexist together. But, 4x can't help but feel like they should not be there anymore. It almost feels like things would be better if 4x just moved on and just let 5 and 7 be. 4x is tired of always getting fake :) and ;) from both 5 and 7. 4x is not stupid and is tired of being treated differently. The saddest part is that 7 doesn't even realize all the sacrifices 4x has made for them. 5 has laughed at 4x and has even warned 4x about how 4x is just too radical and bizarre to ever fit in. 4x tries to look at the positive side but is afraid of the outcome.
4x and 7 work very different jobs and have completely opposite hours. 4x looks forward to the time off which happens only twice a year. However, 7 sees this as an opportunity to be left alone. This makes 4x feel very sad because, 4x knows this is the only time that he can give to 7. But, it seems like 7 doesn't want to even remotely be seen with 4x. So you must be wondering, why hasn't 4x left yet? There are a number of reasons (ha get it?).
1. 4x is in mathematical equilibrium with 7. 7 is kind of the best number that 4x has ever encountered.
2. 4x still has hope that one day 7 will want to be there for 4x. 7 does do a lot of little every day stuff for 4x which, 4x appreciates, but doesn't dedicate enough of actual time in activities with 4x.
3. 4x has already began eliminating the option of getting to know other numbers. 4x knows that 7 is it and is the one that is going to be forever and ever. 4x fears that 7 may not reciprocate that back. This leads 4x to give attitude towards 7.
There's more reasons but I could go on and on and on. But basically, the problem isn't 5 at all. The problem is between 4x and 7. However, 5 does not help the situation and does affect 4x and 7 in one area: time. 4x has expressed this difficult computation to 5 (which 5 gets). But, 5 sees this as being rather funny and loves seeing 4x and 7 quarrel a lot. Makes 4x wonder if 5 doesn't deem 4x as worthy. Not that it matters to 4x but again, it just detracts from the situation.
But alas, 4x has found comfort in other areas outside of Math. But one can also wonder why it is so damn difficult for people to just be themselves without controlling every situation. It seems like if they don't have control, they are lost.
Don't let this be you. Be around people that want to be around you. Make those other people wish they had your life. If not, then find something that you love within yourself.